Seriously...

i always lost my emotion...
when alone...
i can't smile like past...
i can't active like at school...
i can't naughty like at school...
i feel lonely...
i feel sad...
i feel everyppl reject me....

got a malay girl told me...
A:hei soo,u too friend with malay la....go friend with ur chinese gang la...
actually why she say like this a...?
dun noe...anywhere i go,sometime...i feel wan cry...but dun noe y...can't cry oso...
but when slp in the dark...cry....

really...
i feel wan cry...,
when i saw my best friend get far away frm me n no say a word to me oso when thy leave...
i feel very very sad...
actually b4 tis...got a prs call me go ubk for ermm... 'recover my hurt in my heart'
but lastly,i choose the answer>NO...
no...i would go ubk...coz i noe...this wound nvr will recover...
believe me...,i carry this wound since frm when i am a budak kampung...
i come to city when darjah 4...b4 tis i stay at Ulu yam...
i have a lot of relax when be a kampung kid...
cycling~panjak pokok~lari sini situ~kejar kejar~tidur kat padang~
tu la masa silam ku....
the oni thing i hope when i was growth is...
i can have a big field n thr will juz have my house oni^^
sumtime i will fishing near the pond~
sumtime i will slp on the grass watching the star~

seriously...
i start feel i have some serious problem already...
when i run...
i will have illusion....i heard someone calling me...

the oni thing i hope to have is....
pls...
i want restart my life...